I love songs, did you know? And this song has always really spoken to me: The voice of truth, tells me a different story...the voice of truth, says do not be afraid. And the voice of truth, says this is for my glory. Out of all the voices calling out to me, I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth."
Sadly, I had a miscarriage this week. I woke up Tuesday morning with cramping and bleeding, and I suspected the worst. I went in to the doctor and they did some bloodwork and I was supposed to follow up in two days. I ended up having to go back to the doctor the next day because of some issues, and they confirmed it then. We are sad. It has been tough on me physically, but I know that I serve a God who loves me and who knows what is best for me. And so, I trust.
Random happy story. This photo just makes me laugh. Such a silly boy who is all boy, but yet sensitive at the same time. Example, you say? Okay. We have a woodpecker that is completely destroying our chimney. It has pecked a hole in the side of our chimney that is quite large. John is mumbling about this woodpecker under his breath, and so Ansley says "Just shoot it, Daddy!" To which Christian responds "NO Daddy! That woodpecker has a Mommy and a Daddy." Oh, so compassionate! And so much like his Mama, it's scary sometimes.
Another random story: Can you guess what this photo is about?
Mimi had just left, and this is the result. SENSITIVE, I tell ya. Well, sensitive and hopelessly devoted to Mimi. BUT! NOW! there's nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside....oh, sorry. If you don't know that song, that will make absolutely no sense.
I am looking forward to a women's conference at our church this weekend and spending time with some wonderful ladies. I have to say, I truly believe that part of why I am doing as well as I am doing with all of this is because of the love and care that these girls have shown. It is nothing short of God's loving kindness, given to me in the form of so many sweet and thoughtful friends. I am blessed!
And seriously, how can I be sad with these smiling faces in my life? John has been tremendously supportive through all of this, and so have Ansley and Christian. Christian gives me hugs throughout the day, which is so sweet. Okay, that's true, he did that before all of this, but it's still sweet. The other night I was hurting so bad I was crying in my bed, and Ansley came into the room, crawled up on the bed, pulled the covers over me, and with tears streaming down her face, started praying over me. What in all the world could be better than that?
My grieving language is food, and man has there ever been some good eatin' this week.
The other part of why I am doing as well as I am doing is because of that voice.....this is for MY glory.
Then it's worth it.
I appreciate all of the notes, emails, phone calls and cards that I have received. YOU are a blessing to me!
Megan, you truly are blessed. I know how difficult a time like this is, but you are blessed to not only have a family who loves (and prays for) you...but to have such wonderful friends to support you. Sending you love from GA. Can't wait to hear about your ladies conference. :)
MEGAN RESPONDS: You are right, Amber. It is such a comfort to have amazing family and friends praying for us. I can feel it!
Posted by: Amber | April 15, 2010 at 10:16 PM
Love you and praying for you. My love should be arriving in the mail shortly :)
MEGAN RESPONDS: Awesome! You are packaging yourself up and sending you to me? Sweet! ;)
Posted by: Ashley | April 15, 2010 at 10:21 PM
Oh, Megan, my heart breaks for you right now. I am so sorry. I am so thankful for the love being poured out on you by your family and friends. I can hear in your testimony how in the middle of the sadness there is the comfort only the Lord can give you. I'm praying for you.
Love in Him, Renee'
MEGAN RESPONDS: Thank you Renee. You are and always have been such a source of encouragement in my life, even though I always wish we were closer! Thank you for your sweet note as well - it really blessed me this morning! Love you friend.
Posted by: Renee | April 15, 2010 at 10:51 PM
Praying for you Megan! What a sweet girl that Ansley is, taking such good care of you and lifting you up in prayer. I am so glad you have such a wonderful support system and a strong faith. Sorry for your loss and sending lots of peace and healing your way!
MEGAN RESPONDS: Thank you Marni! I really appreciate it!
Posted by: Marni | April 15, 2010 at 11:31 PM
Hi Megan,I am so sorry to hear about the miscarriage. I went through the same thing in 2006 when I was about 10 weeks along. Of course I don't know why it happened but about 5 months later got pregnant with my precious Ian and that pregnancy went very well. I am praying for comfort and blessings for you and your family.
Posted by: Robin Miles | April 19, 2010 at 09:34 AM
"The other night I was hurting so bad I was crying in my bed, and Ansley came into the room, crawled up on the bed, pulled the covers over me, and with tears streaming down her face, started praying over me." This brought tears to my own eyes! What good fruit is being displayed in her life! She knows Who to go when things are hard. Good job, friend!
Posted by: Erika | April 22, 2010 at 07:11 PM